these things are normal, for me

shower time is my time
my time to give thanks
my time to pray
my time to reflect
my time to be present

a week ago today
i was thinking about steph's graduation
just 2 days away

i wished i could wind back time
i wished there were things i could
do differently
i wondered if i could do them differently
what our today would be like

don't get me wrong
i am grateful for our lives

i realized we travel the paths we do
to learn
to grow

i have learned
so very much

i have grown
beyond my wildest dreams

but still
if i could have one wish
just one
my wish would be
to be able to do it all over again
with all that i have learned
with how i have grown

once i was done reflecting
i gave thanks for now
i took a few minutes just to be present
just to feel the water
just to breathe

suddenly, as though someone had called my name
i was snapped back into the real world
i realized i must have been in the shower for a very long time

i quickly turned off the shower
whipped open the shower door
and checked to see what time it was.

this alarm clock is one of the best
usually i unplug it in the morning after the hubby is up
when you plug it back in it automatically sets itself

it has a button that allows you to change the time either forward or backward

when i looked to see just how long i had been in the shower
the clock was going in reverse, back in time, full speed.
i stood in awe.
not disbelief.
these things happen to me all of the time.
my hubby always thought i was a bit cookey until he witnessed
these events
i was relieved that i had witnesses at home
so i quickly grabbed a towel and
called my daughter in to see.

i know
deep in my heart
down to the core of my very being
my soul
that i was told my wish was granted
not literally
but i have been given a chance to do things
'over'
to be given a second chance.

i decided not to unplug the clock but leave it alone
hoping my hubby would get a chance to witness this message
later when i came back to check the clock
it had stopped going back in time and had
reset itself.

i have left it plugged in as a test
just to see if the heat and humidity from the shower
caused this
though it has been plugged in during many showers before
it has never done it since.

i feel blessed to have been given notice that my prayers have been heard