the back

of bev's charm 

from the world's sweetest man

this morning as i came upstairs when i heard my hubby come home from work i found this (and cheesecake) waiting for me.......my hubby majorly sleep deprived, and money so tight around here since there has been no more overtime and he made sure i had flowers, and not one, but two cards.......ohhh the heart shaped peanut butter cup.......yummy. we shared a few bites of cheesecake and then i tucked him and madalyn in bed. 

dog daze of february

my hunny bunny trying to relax on the couch for a few minutes......molly and melvyn chasing each other all over the livingroom and up onto the couch and all over my exhausted hubby, then add a jealous madalyn.

we put molly's cute little pink boots on melvyn to watch him walk funny.....money is tight these days, and we needed cheap entertainment.......we joked melvyn would be traumatized wearing 'pink' boots.... 

my baby boy.........

10 years ago today my last baby was born.......like his brother and sister he almost left this world before he was officially here, with severe problems that could have killed us both a few hours before he was born, he was my smallest weighing in at 9pounds 8 ounces and just a bit more the 2 weeks early.

where did the time go, how did he grow up so fast.........i just can not believe it.

today we went ahead with our traditional birthday skip school day to go shopping for birthday gifts......he was still a bit sick but you sure can't tell from these pics!

10 years ago i looked into his newborn eyes and saw an old soul......one who had walked this earth many times, he would be my ball of fire.
i was right.....i also guessed he would be the one who would end up tattooed and/or pierced, and so far he has lived up to the pierced part......if it would up to him his diamond looking c.z. bling bling thang would be the size of his head, but he mama made him settle for something a bit more respectable in size. the tattoo thing, thank goodness does not interest him now, and that, if he ever decides to do will have to come after he graduates school. he has a very strong sense of style, but it is his own, and once he does his hair, just like his grandpa, don't touch it! he is one of the most mature 10 year olds you will ever meet. he is a take charge, lets get in there and get it done kid, who is wise beyond his years and you would never guess he inherited my learning disabilities.....


he came home with what is called a green machine. and he also picked out 19 hotwheels to add to his collection, while dad looked to see if there were any missing from his collection! i don't know who is the bigger kid of the two!

this wild boy is also one of the most sensitive and most incredibly sweet boys you will ever meet. he is a snuggler, and is squishy and lovey....

however.....is is also all boy and he loves to get muddy especially on the days when that is the last thing i need, he loves to aggrevate his brother and sister until they are ready to choke him and i am ready to duct tape him to a wall! he can not walk through the house, he has to runjumpbouncehoproll at all times, and when he is tired he drops where he is and it out. he is a practical joker......and some days ugh!

just like his brother and sister he is a unique individual, and just like them he is perfect the way he is, although if he would have been born first there would not have not been a 2nd and 3rd child! my nervous system could not handle it!  

A few quotes that relate to Studio Friday

I love quotes......i collect them like they are the world's most valuable treasure....i remembered a few quotes that kind of relate to Studio Friday that i love and thought i would share......

"feed your faith and your fears will starve to death"
author unknown

" every tomorrow has two handles. we can take hold of it by th handle of anxiety, or by the handle of faith."
author unknown

"faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase."
MLK JR.

"when you come to the edge of all the light you know, and are about to step off into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing one of two things will happen: there will be something solid to stand on, or you will be taught to fly."
barbara j winter

~STUDIO FRIDAY~ FEAR

I have recently take on and confronted a few of my fears.........

• started my own yahoo group.......and have tackled a few problems that have arose! what if no one joined i worried, then after i had to send out an email to lay down the law so we would have no more problems crop up in the future, i feared everyone would leave, think i was mean and horrible, but they didn't, and i have been wonderfully supported.......ahhh sigh of relieve! and a wonderful group of artists have joined!
• applied for membership to MMCA.....that was a huge step in conquering fear.......i am putting myself in the position to be rejected...big time.....i put my app in last sunday at almost midnight, it said i would hear something within 7 days. a day or so later a friend noticed that the site said they were temporarily not taking any more applications........hmmmm did mine just slip in under the wire, or is it sitting in limbo out there maybe to be discovered eons from now and on the 8th day i will check my emails to see still no answer and feel rejected.......i guess i will know the answer to that monday.
• did a demo at redlead back in october, i was terrified, what if i bored everyone to tears, people walked away, BUT everyone loved it, my demo ran a half hour over and everyone stayed! and loved it! yehaa!
• joined two local groups......that was sooo hard to walk into a room where i hardly knew anyone! and drive far away from my home to places i was totally lost!
• FEAR I HAVE TO WORK ON: selling my art..........again another issue with rejection......seeing a pattern here? childhood baggage! i have admitted this to very view people, but i am afraid and not only am i afraid of rejection, but i am also afraid of success! how stupid is that!?!?! i want success sooooo bad, but yet i FEAR it sooooo much.

see the fears of other artists here

i have been tagged!!!!

4 jobs I've had:

• pizza maker at BIG CHEESE pizza.......my 1st job
• unit secretary for screen print company.....i was laid off because the owner needed to remodel his private work out room
• senior customer sevice agent for insurance company....that is the special name they give you when you do the bosses work but get the janitors pay
• full time mom, keeper of dust bunnies and other assorted duties as required......the best yet!

4 places I've lived:

• all over st louis as a child
• many places in kansas
• north carolina
• saint charles missouri for 17 years, the longest i have lived in 1 place

4 shows I enjoy:

I don't really watch much tv......and rarely sit through a whole show...but when i do it is:

• house........love, love,love this show!
• medium
• csi
• anything science-y (i am a science geek at heart!)

4 places I've vacationed:

• nags head beach as a child
• no
• where
• else (unless you count an hour in the shower with NO ONE screaming mom on the other side of the door!)

4 websites I visit daily:

• my yahoo group
• friends/ art sisters blogs
• other yahoo groups & blog groups i belong to
• blogs and websites of a few inspiring artists that i don't know

4 favorite foods:

• my morning maple brown sugar oatmeal
• clementines....my new love
• roasted almond granola bars and vanilla yogurt
• COOKIE DOUGH!

4 places I'd rather be right now:

• some place warm and sunny.......i can't take another bleh day!
• at an artsy lock in with friends and art sisters
• on the receiving end of a winning major big bucks lottery ticket ( hey a girl can dream, can't she........)
• oh, this is hard....i am a home body....there is no place like home......

4 bloggers I'm tagging:

ohh.....i will be back in a minute with this one.....i think everyone i know has played.......

YUP, everyone i know of has been tagged..........but if you are reading this and haven't been tagged.....then ha! tag your it! neener neener!