for the first time in 2 years my studio is almost mine again.
it is a long story.
do i explain?
to speak of it again would be like hauling a bag of trash around and constantly smelling the stink of it.
it is time to just get rid of it.
it is time to celebrate. be happy. be free.
when someone uses you....when you let yourself get into a situation where you are taken advantage of and you suffer from 'too freakin' nice for your own darn good' syndrome....
i have learned my lesson......mmmm.... i have learned A lesson.
for 2 years i did not make art, a few pieces of jewelry.....but no real art. lots of bouts of depression every time i walked down to my studio and became overwhelmed by the mess.
getting back to happy.....so happy......
my soldering table and glass cutting table still need to be cleaned.
several pieces of ephemera and vintage photos need to be filed.
i now have a full 2' x 2' of work space! whoo-hoo!
lots of trash dumped.
lots of someone elses stuff to be returned.
lots of stuff to goodwill.
i sat in my studio and cried as i looked around friday.
the chaos
the clutter
the confusion
the sadness
fading away......
i lost a huge piece of me during that 2 years. being so sick on top of the situation i ended up in....made it worse.
would i find the same me i lost 2 years ago?
i don't think so.
i think......i know i am going to find a new improved me.
a healed me.
a more creative and inspired me.
a happier me.
a stronger me.
a ready to be successful me.
a faith filled me.
this arty girl was a hopin' and prayin' to be full time in her studio as of today, but the weekend did not go as planned.....it was better.
today was not as planned either, but so good to get out of the house.
tomorrow i can not wait for it to get here, ok it is technically tomorrow, so i mean my version of tomorrow......
i am running to my studio,
expectations high, face happy,
attitude properly adjusted....
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