ughhhhhhhh!

a couple of hours ago i sat down, typed a nice little hi there how ya doin', hit the freaking publish button and poof.........everything i had typed disappeared! oh, i swear!

ok, i am going to breathe in, breathe out, and find my happy place......be back in a minute..........breathe, breathe............whoosaaaaaaa.....ok.....

as soon as i can afford it....which i hope is in a month or two i may have to go typepad! anyone out there ever have any problems with them? i think i am going to start typing an entry, publish and then go back and add and republish so that this does not happen again.....it seems like it happens all of the time! ok, i am better now!

hey there......remember me?

ok....yikes did not realize just how long it had been since i had posted until this past weekend! yikes!

well, some parts of life are still all blahhhhhh, but we are adjusting to said blahhhhh......

so far everyone has survived family togetherness during summer break.....barely......i have only threatened to duct tape the kids to the inside of their closets a few times so far.......why can't they just leave each other A L O N E ! how hard is it really.......? most days it kinda sounds like this......

steph.....morning mom...how are you?
me.....great....how are you sweetie?
steph....oh fine....
me.......are the boys still sleeping..........
steph.....yup...wanna sneak in the pool before they wake up
me.....of course!!!!
sam......stop it max
max...stop what...i did not do anything
sam....yes you did and i am telling mmmmmooooooooooooommmmmmmmmm.......max________ (insert: hitted me, poked me, touched me, spit on me, looked at me, breathed on me, put his gross disgusting smelly pig feet on me.......etc, etc, etc......)
me.......max leave your broth.....
max.....i did not do anything to him
me......er alone!
max.....but i did not do it and besides he did it to me first
sam....did not
max....did too
sam....did not dork
max....did too dorkity dork
sam....did too smelly underwear boy super dork
max....mom he said i have smelly underwear
sam....well you do, and you need to change them cuz you got skid marks
max......mommmmmmmm sam said i have.....
mom....will both of you stop it now or i am taking you to walmart and putting a free to good home sign around both of your necks!
max......skid marks and i don't cuz i changed 'em last night......
me.....boys get along now or i am sending you both out to clean up dog poo in the yard with your bare hands.......and madalyn got into the trash last night and you ought to see what she left in the yard.........
steph....max and sam shut up you are giving me a headache
boys.....mom steph said shut up
me......dog poo in the yard or get along.........
max.....mommmmmmm
sam......mommmmmmm
me.....well, what is it gonna be
sam......mom is mean.....
me.....yes i am and at the mean mommy academy i got an a+ in super mean mommy class!
max....hey sam...wanna play a video game
sam....yeah sure.....dork
max....bigger butt dork
sam....i get to play first
max....you got to play first last time...thats not fair....mommmmmmmmm
me.......warm, gooey, smelly dog poo.................
max.....ok sam you can go first....geez mom is crabby......

someday i am actually going to miss this! ha! geez! add in a daughter with att-it-tude and what a fun house this is! i am very lucky because i have really sweet wonderful kids, or so i keep telling my self! i do really. really i do..........yup, i do........

so anyway, the youngest goes back to school this week, the other two have almost a month.......then 3 weeks after they go back the youngest is already on cycle break........ughhhhhhhhhhh!

ok, so i am looking forward to some me time, can ya tell!

well, i have had lots of stuff going on this summer....trying to get a 'business' going selling my art, jewelry, etc and a joint venture with a really good friend, trying to fit in housework, artwork, exercise, yardwork, yadda yadda yadda, oh yeah, and a little sleep here and there. we have had some pretty annoying computer problems for almost 2 months.....partially thanks to my oldest sons friend who came over and spent the night and without our permission made himself at home on our computer and we ended up with a virus. the kid was strange, i really don't like most other peoples kids! it blows my mind at their bad manners, if they have any at all!

we were given an english bulldog....free......but is anything ever really free!? ha! she was 11 months old, we have had her for a month.....omg what a riot she is! you ought to hear her version of howling.........and of course like every other animal in this house she brought with her 'issues' and health problems....but she is so funny! pictures coming soon.........i have not yet scanned anything or uploaded any photos from this computer yet! i may wait until will and denise come over again and will can be here in case i make the computer smoke and burn! i have learned how to burn cd's, and will installed a dvd player so now i can watch movies on my computer in my studio while i art........ohhhhhh i love it! my honey got me surround sound speakers!

i am trying to get us all back on a normal people schedule. i hate this! i actually have ancestors that came from transylvania, so i joke that i am part vampire......ha ha ha ha ha.....just the sleep during the day live by night part.....not the grody suck-your-blood part.....ewwww, totally! the kids and i all seem to function better and feel better during the evening so during summer months we stay up until the wee hours of the morn' and sleep late, well, they do at least. i get up and enjoy the peace and quiet!

well, i have tons more to say, but i can hardly keep my eyes open....a couple hours in the pool with 3 kids can poop you out! tonight we swam until 10 pm! i hate coming in to the air conditioning soaking wet.....i am getting to old for this! my hubby and i still need to fit in our annual nakey swimming.....can't call it skinny dipping cause their aint nothin' skinny about it, but we have done it every year.....the kids found out about it this year and it grossed them out! oh, i love it..........and i am rambling again......i can never just say see ya later and shut up! so, anyway just wanted to say hi, and will post pics of all the neat art i have done over the last couple of months in the next couple of days or so! i am going to blog surf, i have not done that in a couple of months..........okay i am shutting up now......ok now.......now i am for real.........

a bit of life in our home

i was hoping things were settling down, once again to add some entries and art this week, and it seems this will not happen.

first, before i forget i want to thank will and denise for their friendship, we have actually adopted them as family. april 22nd was my birthday, and in the midst of coping with the brutal murder of will's nephew the previous week he put a wonderful computer system together for me as a birthday gift so that i could have a computer of my very own to get my business started. i am in the process of creating some unbelievable necklaces and bracelets using vintage appliques that were denise's grandmothers, that she so sweetly shared with me.

this last week has yet been another roller coaster ride for us. i have been horribly sick with a kidney/bladder infection and the medicine and i are not compatable, but i have no choice but to take it and deal with the horrible side effects. one of the side effects is vision disturbances, and i pray that i will not experience this one in particular after the bizzare reaction i had to steroids i had to take last year that sent me to a neuro-opthomologist.

thursday we received information that my husbands sister only had a few days to live. she has been ill for several years, and for the last six months or so had been dying, but did not want any of the family notified until the end. it was not uncommon for us not to hear from her, and it was my husband who sought his sister out to check on her from time to time. they were very close as kids, and those memories my hubby always held dear to his heart no matter what had changed as they became adults. she passed away sunday morning. my hubby never got a chance to talk to her one last time, by the time we were given the news she was already too far gone to even comprehend his presence in the room. he went to see her this morning after a doctors appointment, which almost got cancelled....the dr's office called and said our doctor had a death in the family and we had to cancel.....my hubby had been out of his meds for a couple of days and this is the last thing he needed....i pleaded with the secretary to see if she could squeeze him in with another doc since all he needed was a script, so......
after working 3rd shift, after the doctors office visit which is a the hospital across the highway, he went to the other hospital, he scrubbed up, gowned and gloved up and went to walk in the room and a man lay in the bed she had occupied the previous day. no one called to let any of us know she was gone. there is no good way to find out a loved one has passed, but this was by far one of the worst ways. my hubby left the hospital, drove to his brothers home, no one was there, drove to his sisters ex-husbands home, no one there either. he came home, mentally and physically exhausted and fell asleep.

the news of her illness came from my hubby's brother, who is also very ill and is on an organ transplant list. he is a mere shadow of the man he was, broken. and i often wonder if he will live long enough to get the phone call that they have a match. he is a wonderful person with a wonderful heart that spent most of his life lost, too, and i only hope and pray that help is just 'round the corner. his wife passed away almost 4 years ago, a year after she had gastric bypass surgery. something my hubby also had, and seeing what she went through and what my hubby goes through on almost a daily basis i would hate to see anyone else go through this. this morning my brother -in-law came to give us info on the arrangements for their sister, and had found out that his wife's sister will not be able to fly in because she is having surgery, she has skin cancer and they think it may have gone to her brain.

if you sit and think about all of this too much the room begins to spin.

we are also in for a summer of doctors appointments with our 3 kids. the youngest back at the neurologist, the other 2 the neurologists office has referred to other specialists.

there are a few other things going on for us here that we have been dealing with for months that continue to be issues. someday posting in such a public place about some private things of the past will be an option i do not feel i have now.

right now i feel like our life is a beautiful, irreplaceable, precious vase that fell from a shelf and shattered, and someone scooped us up and put all the pieces back where they belong, only they have not yet been glued in place, so one wrong move, one more jolt, and the vase will crumble down again. oh, what humpty must have felt like. we sit and wait, patience is a virture they say, we wait for someone to come with the glue so we can stand solid and sure once again. i am so thankful to have such a wonderful husband and kids, and adopted family to go through this with.


i hope to return soon. with stories with happy endings and art.

thank you everyone who has left wonderful comments here, and at my email address. i have not taken the time lately to send personal notes of thanks, but soon i hope to.

evidence of spring atc

for redlead! i don't think i have been putting these on my blog lately......i don't even know what end is up though.

busy getting ready to start selling on my blog, and ebay. busy busy busy.......eeks........

hope to be able to chat soon! i did make it to redlead last night for the card club that is now the book club thingy. love being out and about with others making art. next week i am going to try to go for atc night at redlead. have not done that in awhile!
well, off to get homework, dinner.....eeee it is already 7:23! showers, housework, artwork. and here i go again just ramblin'. i can never just stop and say hi...... 

ja-who-dees charm

got even braver with this one! yeeha this was fun.......wonder what i can do next.............the wheels are turning! 

barb's charm

got even a little braver on this one and added a charm....although i am a bit worried after the fact that the littly cupidy angel's wing might turn out to be a lethal weapon! 

heather's charm and jounal

so i decided to get a little brave and add a doohicky to the charm......
i am liking the chicken so much i am going to make one for myself....someday!